Let That Door Close

I recently caught up with some friends, and although I love every conversation with these ladies, one thing in particular stuck out to me. One friend, who had a rather rough year, told me how she’s no longer living life trying to plan the future. She gave up her 5 year plan and now only sets short term goals for herself. I told her I could never do it because I am such a planner and a realist. I can hardly function without a plan B, or thinking of every consequence or outcome of each decision not only I make, but the ones Matt makes as well. She didn’t have to tell me how much happier she is living this way. I could see it in her face and hear it in her voice. The more I ponder on her decision, the more I realize how much of my life has been based on outcomes that were not planned, and how those are some of the most amazing things in my life. I had a basic plan for my life and I expected things to go my way because I willed it. But man, I am so glad my life didn’t go according to plan.

The night I met Matt for the first time was a near hopeless Friday night with zero plans. Little did I know I’d be meeting my future husband that night, but I’m so glad I let that night play out the way it did! My pregnancy with Roen is another example. It’s no secret Matt and I were NOT trying to get pregnant. We talked about marriage but never even got to the kid talk before we found out we were expecting. Of course, I am so glad Roen came when he did and have no bitterness that he wasn’t a planned pregnancy. It truely feels like he came at the exact right moment in our lives. Then came our wedding, which happened way sooner than planned, as we hurried to become husband and wife before welcoming a child into the world together. A little over 3 years later, I know that I have found my person, and I’m so glad I did before I made any more mistakes! Finally, the most recent unplanned change in our lives. My husband getting a 10 day notice that he would be out of a job at a place he worked so many hours at to provide for his new family for the past 3 years. We finally felt like we were in a stable place to bring a second child into the world and suddenly our only income was coming to a halt. But just like the unplanned situations mentioned prior, this was another one that made life even greater! It was one door closing, one door that needed to close to push us into doing something that scared both Matt and I, starting our own business! Here we are, just a couple months into the business and we have already had such a great start, and continue to grow each day. My super hero husband figured out a plan to provide for our growing family so that we could provide for our children and save for our future! All while allowing me to still be a stay at home mom, which is something I never even dreamed of having the luxury of being!

Looking into the future as I like to do, I always say that we’re moving to Tennessee, and I’ve even pinpointed it to Spring of 2019. But the truth is, plans don’t always work out. And even more often, the unexpected, unplanned occurrences in our lives end up resulting in the best things that have happened to us. So I will continue to put my faith in God, because I know his plan is SO much bigger than my own, and as I challenge myself to ditch the 5 year plan, to make short term goals and plans rather than looking too far into the future, the unknown, I also challenge the other planners reading this to not worry about the distant future. It’s okay to live for today and tomorrow, even thinking ahead about next month. It’s important to know how you’re going to pay rent, have an idea of where you’d like to be in a year or 5, but planning and having too many expectations can make you more bitter and stressed then just letting go and letting life play out. Don’t look ahead too far, because life is full of beautiful unexpected things, and our perfect timing might not be right for what God has planned for us.

Here are the latest bump pictures from the week. You can shop this dress and others like it at Pink Blush

Commit to the Lord whatever you do, and he will establish your plans.

Proverbs 16:3


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